God, I hate her/him so much!!!
Have you ever had that thought about her/him? If you say no, then I think you might be lying. I can certainly say for myself that I have had it more then once in my life and I always felt justified. The question is, was I? People come into our lives and they have very important messages for us. Sometimes we can hear them right away and at other times it will take several messengers, each one becoming more intense it seems. The first messenger might just feel like a light tap on the shoulder, whispering hey I have something you need to pay attention to. My answer was usually I DON'T HAVE TIME. The second messenger was more like a firm poke in the chest saying HELLO anybody home, I have an important message for you! My answer would pretty much be the same, except I was even more annoyed then the first time.
Finally here it comes, the baseball bat over the head! WOOMMMMM! My answer to that one: OK I am all ears, what do you have for me.
At that point my life was usually so bad that I was eager to listen to anybody and anything who would make suggestions. A.k.a. rock bottom, please help me!
Every situation in life is here to help us get closer to our ultimate goal, to love without conditions or judgements. When we start seeing events that come into our lives through that lens, it changes our perception of what is actually happing in a profound way. All of a sudden the PERPETRATOR becomes a messenger and if we start to open our heart to the situation and are honestly asking for guidance, it will show up. It might not be in the form we were anticipating but in there lies the beauty! There are infinite possibilities that we would have never thought about as a solution and yet here it is, showing up miraculously.
So when a situation arrises where you feel like throwing something at somebody, pause for a moment and remove yourself from the situation. Then after you calm down some, and it can take days, ask yourself whether there is even a tiny glimpse of compassion that you can muster up for that person. Maybe try to just put yourself into at least one of their shoes. Now look whether there is anything that is an unresolved wound inside of you that triggers you so much. Maybe something from your childhood, maybe something left over from other relationships from your past. Where does the situation look familiar? Have you experienced something along those lines before?
Dig deep, this is really important!!! You have to find the REAL SOURCE of your agitation otherwise it will come back again and again and again...
Our ego of course will do everything in its power to convince you that it is all the other person's fault, don't fall for it, it is a BIG trap! Remember it is a messenger!
Once you find it, way back in that old closet, and heal it, the situation that was practically destroying your life will go away and more importantly won't return!
Love and a thousand blessings always!
